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Thursday, November 6th, 2003

Subject:living with this lunacy.........CALLED LIFE.
Time:9:30 pm.
Mood: depressed.
im so over people and there lame ass drama. i hate life. i hate when all people can do is be a slut. it really bugs. i ahte and i love my friends its so fuct.i feel like everything in my life is dead. and it is. but whutever. i hate SLUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im a slut..........
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Thursday, July 10th, 2003

Subject:seein you is going to be euphoric
Time:10:20 pm.
Mood: depressed.
i get to see placebo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!tommorow............ahahaahah fuck you hahahahahaahahaha
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Sunday, July 6th, 2003

Subject:im rich......like a HOT NOIZZZZZEEEEEEEEEEEE
Time:11:38 pm.
everyone is too stuck up
for theyre own good..
hang up a picture.
look at yerself.
get sucked in.
into yer vanity.
the set is complete.
you feel alone but ya know yer not.
yet you feel like death but you knoe you wont.
take yer insecurities and put them on me.
you hate me
but you love me.
you love to hate me.
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Monday, June 23rd, 2003

Subject:everyone sucks .
Time:9:32 pm.
Mood: depressed.
im at 3DO and everyone left me in the DUST. barbie ramses and isai. anyway placebo is in like 2 weeks hell yeah im so excited. yeah yeah yeah. im out peace
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Sunday, June 22nd, 2003

Subject:the unheard cries
Time:3:14 pm.
Mood: depressed.
haha life sucks....blah
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Monday, June 16th, 2003

Subject:my pain is my own....my pain is my end.
Time:9:27 pm.
Mood: gloomy.
frankie frankie.....
frankie
frankie frankie...
we need to get our shit together.
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Sunday, June 8th, 2003

Subject:PLACEBO....
Time:9:32 pm.
Mood: depressed.
yeah i just got the best thing of muh life besides NO DOUBT>>>>>
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Tuesday, May 27th, 2003

Subject:broken heart. broken mind.
Time:9:13 pm.
Mood: depressed.
he kissed sumone else.
i felt my heart shatter.
it crumbled before my eyes.
i saw with my own eyes.
he said it wasnt him.
but i saw it.
no no no no no no no.
i dont believe my eyes.
they are telling lies.
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Sunday, May 25th, 2003

Subject:im an art star
Time:10:37 pm.
Mood: depressed.
its a madhouse
this modern life
its a madhouse.
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Friday, May 16th, 2003

Subject:one night stand.
Time:10:54 am.
Mood: depressed.
give yerself away.
give yerself away.
to anyone.
cause the one you that
you love has already left.
cause the one you love
is already gone.
just to the first person you can.
cause the one you love
didnt even care.
cause the one you onced loved
is already gone.

scream it out.
feel it out.
but theyre already gone.
scream it out.
feel it out.
but theyre already gone.
scream it out.
feel it out.
cause theyll never come back.
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Wednesday, May 14th, 2003

Subject:assasinate me.
Time:9:38 am.
Mood: depressed.
my life is just stacking up high.
and the downfall will be hard.
i dont know whut to do.
frustation.
everyones movin on.
and i will be left behind.'
i dont know what will be.
i want our dreams to cum true.
but there not just gunna fall outta the sky;





prettyGIRLSmakeGRAVES is on sunday and monday. YAYness/ atleast there is one thing to look forward to. ONE THING>>>>
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Wednesday, May 7th, 2003

Subject:death is reality....today
Time:10:01 am.
Mood: depressed.
im just sitting here during break time. listening to the beautiful sounds od DIRT. anyway i got a true slap by two people this week. how sick. im over it i am alone in this world....i can not count on anybody but myself. fuck everyone else.
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Friday, May 2nd, 2003

Subject:self-hatred. i already know. YOU dont have to remind me.
Time:8:39 am.
Mood: depressed.
you think you know.
you dont know shit.
why dont you tell me sumthin else about me?
rip me apart.
strip me down.
slaughter my heart.
you make me feel naked.
you take it all away.
i am exposed to the world.
my secrets that should have died.
are now songs.
to remind me, of the wreck i am.
the song keeps on playing.
you hear the voices say...
you hear the voices say.......
this song will have no end.
dont you see.
this is forever.
were all dead,
were all dead.
you just dont know it.
you cant see?
you are just blind to what you dont want to see.
huh?
why dont you learn sumthin about yerself.




he said "you look like suicide"
"you thought no one would notice that,
yer a walking wreck,
and i can see right through you."
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Tuesday, April 29th, 2003

Subject:.the things that make you forget about rock and roll.
Time:9:51 am.
Mood: depressed.
yeah i went to see jessmalin on saturday and i sucked on his neck for a sec. it was great. yeah ive been pretty low these past days. i dont know what to do with myself. im just really confused. no star fell, no car stopped, no one changed my life. im pretty convinced. whut am i gunna do to my life? whut a sick question. i wanna drop outta sickskhool. i want to do fashion design....but i think for now im gunna do hairDRESSING, just as a side job. but i want to design. and im singing in a band. we need to get this band shit together....im sick of waitin. im sick. what i want my life to be is just a dream. and illusion that will never be.
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Friday, April 25th, 2003

Subject:the fine art of self-destruction
Time:10:53 am.
Mood: depressed.
jesse malin my lord...whoo. i saw theINFLUENTS and JESSEmalin at the glasshouse there was like 20 people there it was the sadest thing of my life. i also did sum treats. i had one of the best times in my life just because of a cutie....he gave me a afterGLOW. hahah and to think that it was jesseMALIn. only because he thought that i was a girl, but he does date men,.....haha hes so on my top list.
*dreaming a dream*
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Friday, April 11th, 2003

Subject:a song for the byrds
Time:10:46 am.
Mood: depressed.
she waits until the mess is gone.
then she goes out back. to the dark.
its getting late now.
but she needs her fix.
that is her secret.
i will admit.
this neuroctic girl of mine.
but what was is that got her here?
was it her beautiful image..
that she just cant see...
was it her beautiful heart..
she just cant feel...
living fragile, yes indeed
this neurotic girl of mine.
she says shes fine
alright.
i see the cut marks on her arms...
she tries to hide it...
she hates this world you see
she hates the people and so she bleeds
i hate to see this
i hate to see this you see
i love this little girl of mine
she wants to go to the other side.
and then to die.
and then to die.
this neurotic girl of mine.
better dead than alone.
right?
but id do anything for you.
take me with you neurotic girl.
take me with you im a psycho boy.
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Subject: .for the dead.
Time:8:48 am.
Mood: depressed.
i still have the scars...
you know the ones you left there on monday.
or was it tuesday
you know.
now youll be back,
but you know what? Ive got no time,
not for you anyway....
you wanna leave me in the dust?
you wanna slap me in the face?
you wanna put everything on the line?
*well you already have*
you are gone.
you are disease
you are outta my life
get outta my life
i knew this day would come..
even when you said it wouldnt.
all the time, all the days, all the nights
this is a song FOR THE DEAD.
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Thursday, April 10th, 2003

Subject:.nightmares of my dinner at the china doll.
Time:11:48 am.
Mood: depressed.
and i just smoked a pack of my cool fags...

hha..i went thriftstore shopping yestaday and i got sum great clothes. im gunna gos see the influents in san fran on friday.....yeah that should be a great trip.
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Tuesday, April 8th, 2003

Subject:here is a song that i wrote for you.
Time:8:28 am.
Mood: depressed.
you want to play it smart?
but this load that is stacked up high on my head
is about to fall
its gonna break, im gonna break
again
so go ahead and leave
and take everything with you
ill be gone when yer back
ill be far gone
..will i see you in the end?

everybody wants to love someone
for me no one will come
ANOTHER ONE LEAVES
ANOTHER ONE COMES
ANOTHER ONE LEAVES
ANOTHER ONE COMES

does this sound bitter?
*DOES THIS SOUND BETTER?*
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Friday, April 4th, 2003

Subject:and all i ever wanted you had...all i ever wanted you had....
Time:10:38 am.
Mood: crappy.
these past few days have been like a big blur.....its friday today and i dont know how the hell i got here....its all one big blur...i knat stop listening to fischerspOOner.. im gunna go.
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